thoughts and feelings as i navigate through this tragic loss of life.

ever since Michelle Go was murdered, i have started to feel more unsafe than usual in a city by myself.

i saw myself in her, an asian american woman passionate about life and caring for those around her. my heart broke reading about how she volunteered and traveled in her spare time.

now a repeat of an incident, but even worse. something more pre-meditated? Christina Lee was cruelly robbed of her life. how both women have suffered before passing. my heart aches for them, their families, their friends.

there is absolutely something to be said about needing more mental health resources, health, housing, and other necessities to live, but that is not something for today.

i think it hurts double for me because 1. i see such striking similarities in the way both michelle and christina lived to how i do 2. as a woman, we try to protect ourselves already so much, but does it really matter if society doesn’t care about us? the next name in headlines could be me or my friends.

i stand with the other communities pushing for a better world to live in, but this one, to me, is a different hurt, something more personal. i understand this is how the other communities feel too when another tragedy occurs. this is why we speak and ask for change.