It’s been a personally sad and heavy month, so I want to talk about something on the completely different. 

Honestly this year, when I was feeling depressed, I thought a list of items that make me really happy would be really handy right about then. So since then, I’ve made it more of a goal to write down moments when I am feeling positive in some aspect.

You know what one of the greatest and specific joys in life are? Being an avid fan of a musical group.

Specifically being a fangirl. 

The movie Turning Red might show it the best. I will say that being an adult fangirl, previously a negative connotation due to patriarchal snobs, hits peak enjoyment. I have the giddy youthfulness enjoying the music and visuals, as well as the adult rationale to not go overboard in other areas. It’s really nice to not have the strange daydreams, but you never grow out of the chaotic thrill of seeing their posts, photos, and interactions. Merchandise and concert tickets are something that I can buy with my own money (I was about to label it as affordable, but I can’t say that is entirely true…), and I could still feel the excitement singing along to the live performance. It’s addicting in this world full of media, and the more popular they are, the more content there is as well. At my age, I am hoping that they also have a balance within their lives, catering to fans but also taking care of themselves first.

It’s almost nostalgic, being able to feel this way at least a decade later. Pure and uncomplicated joy. I’m glad that the world realized that it was judging woman (again) by looking down on fangirls, and now is much more inclusive to everyone. Music is already one of the best art forms, so to be able to listen and watch it while supporting good artists… pinnacle of enjoyment. It doesn’t have to take much, so that serotonin is never too far from access. 

Hope you get to experience this too internet friend.